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Friday, February 29, 2008 Hmm, commitments are seemingly getting tougher for me to live through. Something about school that storms my mind to cower away and neglect school responsibilities. Do all teachers really render to help students or do they just want their pay. But how is it some students are able to perform tasks even as a supererogatory* act. All of us are considered fallible in a way that we are just getting over-worked. Anyway besides that, haven't been up to much for that past few days. Had band practice for the first time in about two weeks or so. And it wasn't a very good one. Many of us were upbraided by Mr. Tan (Conductor). I could say that he's really quite an irascible man, although he doesn't actually show his anger some times, he lets us know he's really pissed off in his own strange manner. Somehow. Now on a random note, I just photoshopped some stupid picture xD. Seems i'm really starting to get hooked on to photoshop, so let me know if you want any designs of any sort (: I'd be happy to do some for you as long as you credit me >.< *word of the day (: supererogatory - to overdo something. Tuesday, February 26, 2008 Well CA results are almost have been handed out with the exception of science and literature. I could say I did "fairly well" but that would be lying I suppose. So anyway here are my scores; Chinese: 50/80 English: 13/25; 66/100 (overall) History: 73.3/100 As for maths, i'm not exactly sure yet, too lazy to calculate. Happy for history though, never really liked it. Oh well i'm just glad its over. Drowned in the immense preasure of being "assorted" according to your intelligence doesn't seem very right to me in many ways. Anyway, been thinking about how life will be for me this year in general. Hope all goes well. Oh by the way English used to be my best subject but as you can see from the scores up there, not exactly the best. All thanks to my "wonderful" *cough* teacher of mine who really seems to "love" and "enjoy" teaching our class. Is it possible for somebody to actually make you stupider? How is that possible. Well my "eccentric" english teacher has that very special ability to do so. Been trying to pick up reading, still not really my thing. Only managed to read like 20 pages in a few days. A book called "Drawing Near" about your levels of intimacy with God and how close you really want to be with him. Yeah, sort of a devotional kinda' thing for me. Anyway good luck for all your CA results then. Some picture I took at the park, editted out of boredom -.-/ Monday, February 25, 2008 Why is it that just pieces of paper can make the biggest turns in life for you. Overcoming these adversities can be as simple as writing your name on it and handing it up. Does it really matter? All this mendacious propoganda that the Singapore government is filling our minds with, are they really true? Controversial arguements over how our governing education system should work. Is this really what's best for us. Anyway nothing happened today, but my head trauma starting to come back again, causing painful migrains. Oh and the CAs are finally over, slacking starting again? Hope not, will try not to. Just realised I haven't taken many pictures of my set, so just snapped a few on my phone today. Here they are leave comments? (: Sunday, February 24, 2008 Is it possible for a human soul to go beyond redemption God? Is it possible for a human mind to be overwhelmed with so much hatred and evil that it cannot be saved? That it has to be tossed into a pit of nothingness to be condemned forever. Why has the world ceased to stop all this evil. Will it ever be purified. Or is this world never going to stop spawning evil shadows as long as hatred still lies within each of us. Will it keep forcing us to toil against the gusts of wind to finally lead us into the righteous path? Or will we remain puppets of the devil, losing our will to live. Well sorry bout the goth-like phrasing and "emo-ness" up there, but I just had to get something off my chest. Anyway, yesterday was FUSION, a youth conference for christians all around Singapore to partake in to gather and learn more about Christ. There were forums, a carnival and a worship along with a sermon. The sermon about being intimate with God and how close do you really want to be with him, or is he just a wall for you to lie on, not giving a damn about it. Is church just something you are made to go every Sunday cos' your parents force you to? Haven't been studying much though my Literature and Science CA is tomorrow (see calendar below for reference). I hope results will be up to par with my parents expectations or somebody gonna get into big trouble :p I really want to do well so I can convince my dad to buy me a laptop >.< My bro's always hogging up the comp and my sis' always using her laptop. Anyway besides that nothing really going on these few days. Thinking about which photos I should choose to enter for the photo competition. If I win that 5k, don't need to ask my dad to buy me a laptop no more xD. And with that, I leave you with the musical stylings of Bob Lyon! Friday, February 22, 2008 I never knew a person could suck that bad, beyond your wildest dreams of being incompetent and unable to do something right. Tell them to get you a green tea drink and they might actually draw you a big letter "T" in green. How retarded can the human mind be as to not be able to surpass the IQ of a damn cucumber or something. Anyway besides that i've been up to editting again. Got a few photos that i'll post. Only some of them will be posted, feel free to ask me if you want to see the rest. Thursday, February 21, 2008 It appears to me that I have recently just experienced a so called "epiphany". It all began when I made my trip to drum class at tampines mall. It made me realise about the gifts I already have and how life is an upside to me rather than a burden. This post might be rather draggy but bare with me. Typing this on my iPod so might have a few typos. Old grandma's, ITE students, mothers and even foreign workers all being included in this post. On my way to drum class on bus no. 10, started tonget really crowdednas the bus swept pass the bus stops. After passing the stop around Changi General Hospital, these bunch od students rushedin shoving each other nearly knocking an old grand lady over. Whats worsenis that they just sat on the seats while the lady stood there already just struggling with carrying her bag. None of them bothered to offer their seats and they still hurled around "f*ck this ans f*ck that lah." They didn't give a bloody damn about the old lady. Just wouldn't be able to live with myself if I just ignored her so I offered my seat but she said she was just takingthe bus for one stop. After looking at the students shirts, big 3 letters ITE printed on. Is this really such the standard of this "educational institution"? Even if your not "academically advanced", don't you have the damn common sense to give up your seat to someone who deserves so much more respect that is actually given to her. Anyway nothing much happened during drum class but the events that took place after it is what saddens me. When I was at the interchange, there was this midle-aged woman probably in her mid-30s who was standing in the middle of the crowds with a little girl; probably her daughter. She was holding a few packets of tissue paper selling them to bypassers. How desperate do you need to be to use your own children as a tool/device to earn some money for your sake. I don't know if I should pity or despise these type of people. The girl looked dazed and confused and she was just a 5 year old kid. Really saddens me how the reality of life can just smack you in the face once in awhile. Well after that I just boarded the 10 bus and made my way back home. When I was one bus stop away from alighting, I saw this indian man, probably just a foreign worker looking like a lost sheep not knowing where the hell he was. After I got off the bus, he got off too, and asked me where Bedok Market was, and I directed him in the right way. How sad that he was like 3 bus stops away from Simpang and had to walk all the way back. I had seen what his emotions were like one the bus. So frantic and confused he was. He was so scared to ask anybody on the bus for directions so he just kept quiet and continued to sit on the bus. This shows how foreign people feel inferior towards us and so out of place. How I wish the world was just harmonised. Well that's it for this super long post. Last CA tests Science and Literature next week! Wednesday, February 20, 2008 Hmm nothing much happened today. Not many things would interest you if I posted about my whole day I presume. Chinese CA is tomorrow. Will be held after school so sian, make us wait for about an hour or so till we get to take it. Not like the other exams where you take it over lessons. And the teachers just sit there, possibly perusing the script due to boredom. "The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet." Will education really bear any fruit at all. Anyway if you don't like something, change it, but if you can't change it, change your stinking attitude and shut up. Yeah life's cruel in many ways. Definition of day : 24 hours, 90% of which is mispent. We are always saying we wanna kill time, but secretly and slowly, time is slowly killing us. I just had to stop and think about what I am going to do with the rest of my life. Don't really know actually, but of course how could you expect a 14 year old kid to think what's going to happen within the next few 50 years of his life? Anyway, people are really starting to piss me off in many different ways. They just can't seem to stop their shit. But holding on to anger is like picking up a hot piece of charcoal and holding on to it and wanting to throw it at somebody, but ultimately it is you who gets burnt. Treat your neighbours like how you would be like to be treated? Haha, what if I wanted to be treated like crap ... Nahh. Getting ready to go for drum class later on at tampines mall. It seems like it's the only interesting about to happen today. Really got nothing else to say but trying to look forward to a brighter day tomorrow. The burden of CAs are killing my mind. Quote of the day : I like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me. Will be trying to be post at least one per day xD. Tuesday, February 19, 2008 The head trauma has started to simmer down and the and the dizziness is beginning to wear off. But through all these, life still seems to be a bore. Living each day without much purpose can be quite a chore. Through and through it all goes by, tick and tock time just passes by, so slowly. Life is wasted on the living I might say. Why not just live life to its fullest, enjoy what you have before it's all gone. The art of living is more like a vicious wrestling match rather than dancing with light steps. It is not how long life is but instead how deep it is. You may live up to a 100, but who the hell cares. If I ever lived up to a 100 years old, I would be pretty sad if my life hadn't been lived out blissfully, but instead with sorrow and grief. Or perhaps regret of so many things done wrong. Who would want to live that kind of life. Not me. Stoning in class never felt so boring ... EVER. If slacking can feel boring what the hell am I suppose to do. Coming to the point of boredom while doing a favourite hobby doesn't seem quite right to me. This perceptive class is about to drive me off the edge. Unknowingly, going to school might be actually deproving my studies. Teachers really need a more innovative way of making lessons more of a fun activity rather than being forced into it. Some teachers act like they just want their salary and just wanna get over with the lesson. Teachers ought to be more jovial and lively. You know, make students actually want to learn something. Perhaps i'm starting to sound like a stuck-up freak, and you might think this post is really "chim" and all but i'm just really bored. Life to me now is like school. Just wanna get over with it and go home. Wake up in the morning, sleep at night. It's just a matter of what the hell you do in between those time spans. Haix, somebody please fill up my life. It feels emptier than a black whole T_T. Monday, February 18, 2008 These sudden migrains in my head are really starting to kill me with such agonising pain. I've already taken 2 panadol pills but they don't seem to have an effect on me. This post being done on my ipod makes it all the worse for me to type so slowly. The CAs seem to have a big part to play in this dizzy spell I have been experiencing through the past few days. Lamenting over this isn't really going to makeit better I guess so I might as well quit complaining. Shouldn't have played soccer just now, it just adds on to my misery. CA todaywas screwed up. Didn't get to complete my history paper and I had so much more to write. But english was moderately difficult in my opinion. Haix, feeling very list these few days and I seem to be living out everyday meaninglessly just like some spectre of floating particles wanderin about. Really haven't been knowing what to do at all for the past few days and the speech tiven by my principal today didn't help much either. Instead it kinda built up more preasurenfor me and areasy got me thinking about my future and "O"s. Streaming seems like a very biased kind if system to me where people are grouped according to intelligence level. Studies build your future? There are people who don't know what the hell moment of a force is and those people are appearing more and more successful to me in life rather than being one of those bill nye the science guy people. Wow this post is pretty long considering the fact that it's being types on my ipod. What am I doing here? Do I really belong in this wretched place seemingly torturing me day by day. This thing we call life, just what the hell is it. Oh God just save me from this burning furnace. Saturday, February 16, 2008 Yay done with changing my skin, matches the last few photos I posted. Been trying to go for more simpler skins. Don't you hate it whenever that certain person you really don't want talking to you suddenly pops out of no where and just blabs away. It seems however hard I try to avoid some people it always comes taking me by surprise some how. CA week is here and really got to keep my mind in it. Can't be wandering around places. Have been procrastinating with the study part of my life so far. Trying to catch up I guess. Can't imagine that time has passed by so quickly. The next thing you know between the blink of an eye and the twitch of an eyebrow, the mid-years will be here. How fragile life is and the fragments containing our experiences and life when we were young seem to be disintegrating into thin air. Never to be recalled ever... I can still remember the time when I was yet just a little boy about the age of 8. It was impossible to imagine myself even being a P6 kid. And now i'm already Sec 2. How irritating it is that time can't be controlled. Slow it down to savour the favourable moments and speed it up to skip the "disliked" moments. People I have known over so many years have changed alot, and I guess I have to. Like that saying uhh "The only thing that never changes is change itself". Yeah, something like that I guess. Hmm, looks like i'll be having to hit the sack soon, to be able to get up for church tomorrow. Can't be late or feel so "malu" :p Hmm, seems like it's been a fairly long time since I played soccer. This toe infection going on my left foot big toe is starting to seem more pathetic of a reason to stop playing. Need to get the feel of it back, and not just laze around at home slacking like now. Will be going out to the usual spot where I used to hang out alot to play soccer and try to get the passion back. Don't really know why I just stopped playing anyway, time constraint? Nah, i'm just too lazy T_T. Why, have I been feeling so lethargic over the past few days, it seems like a torture just to get out of back everyday and some times might even feel like i'm sleeping on a bed of nails. Haix, feel like drinking coffe or a latte now. :p Oh and I got to edit some photos just now. I know abit poser but tell me what you think (: So what do you think? Yeah I had nothing to do on the way home from school, seems that editting pics is becoming my new favourite hobby rather than gaming. Hahas, oh yeah i'm entering the photos in the last post and some others in a photo competition, winner gets 5k, you think I should print out these ones on top? Oh well I took the ones on top with my phone, edit till damn nice right? Haha jkjk. Well will be playing soccer later hope haven't lost my "touch", if I had any. Lol Thursday, February 14, 2008 Today was like any other boring old day actually, nothing much happened. More and more homework being given out by all the teachers. English teacher is really starting to push me off the edge. Homework by her is near impossible to complete within her time limit. Such a sad fact that the revelry of the Chinese New Year Festivities have come to an end. Well the slacking has got to stop and all the dazing off has to come to an end as well. What a pity I was just starting to learn how to sleep with my eyes open xD. Haven't really got much to say but I think i'm kinda getting better at science. Starting to make more sense to me I guess. But what really racks my brains is why we are studying it in the first place. Do we really need to know what speed a car and how much energy it contains when it's about to hit us? Doesn't really make much sense to me. Anyway will be TRYING to complete my homework now not just leaving it in my bag to rot. Haix, really sian nowadays and I might be able to get my iPod back from my Chinese teacher after she confiscated it from me that day T_T. Yay. Wednesday, February 13, 2008 These photos taken by me, editted by me, posted by me. Tell me if you like them (: Monday, February 11, 2008 Wow it seems that girls have the ability to spawn. The original number of girls in my tuition class was like 3 in the beginning of 2007 with another guy and me. Now in the year 2008 the numbers have shot up, and now there are like 6 girls in my class and i'm the only guy there. So "sorang" one. The other guy quit -.-". And although it might seem like a blessing trust me, it ain't. Some of them aren't chio >.< lol. You have no idea how hard it is to concentrate. Hahas. Anyway today was a boring day as usual. Teacher made me stay back with other people for so long so sian. Anyway nothing much happened today, but I decided I wanna lose about 3-5kg by next month. Lol, burnt about like 160+ calories today. Whatever the thing said on the cycling machine. The only thing fun about today was assembly, there were indian percussionist. (Wipe those racist thoughts off your mind xD.) 3 of them jammed on stage and their instruments were damn cool. Toms that are smaller than plates and congas that can play bass and treble pitched noises. Love those latin instruments. This shows that we never need education to get some where in life. Those 3 dudes just survived on whacking stuff -.- what do you need to know about that. Anyway this post has gotta be short cos' my bro has to use the comp. Oh well, up to next time. Oh an by the way I editted quite a few pics and will try and upload them soon for now will just upload one, and yeah the photos are taken by my so no copyright (: Sunday, February 10, 2008 Wow, I have been enjoying the Chinese New Year festivities for far too long. Never been pushed to the point where receiving money from aunties has lost its kick. Eating, collecting money and just slacking around with your relatives. Sound good, not really in some points. Too much bakwha can kill. So far my ang pao meter has reached about 400 bucks. but I feel really bad today cos after church I went to Peninsula Plaza and really splurged. Like 100 bucks T_T. Bought 2 jeans brown skinnies and like a cardigan. Haha, feel kinda ripped off in a way. But I think the jeans are damn nice :p. Haven't been doing much stuff during these slackish holidays, and yet tomorrow is already going to be the dreaded Monday. I only just found out that my CA's are this week. Man i'm gonna suffer for my history. Who the hell cares about history, it's over already anyway T_T. My teacher's really boring, pay more attention to my table then I do to him. Really need to try and work harder. All this slacking will eventually lead to me getting nagged at by my mother. Science teacher already threatened to call my parents for failing 2 tests. Wth right? Call your parents for failing? That doesn't seem very sensible does it. Anyway really need to buck up in my studies and try my best. I know History and Science are the two main things i'm gonna really screw up at. Haix, science understanding about why something drops down -.-. When are we ever going to apply that in life. Cos' if you come to think about it, many of our subjects are pretty pointless. Take maths for an example. When is (a+b)2 = a2+2(a)(b)+b2 ever going to help you in life? Y_Y. Really torturing me how this works. Some times I just feel like turning off my mind and going into some other dimension in class. Just, you know, learn to sleep with my eyes open. Welp, don't have much to say already really, but sad that Chinese New Year had to end. Cheers (: Friday, February 8, 2008 HAPPY CNY! HAPPY CNY EVERYBODY! Yeah i'm the one wearing a tie...T_T Sunday, February 3, 2008 Haven't posted in awhile, been lazy to post though i've been using the computer quite often nowadays. Anyway there's been quite alot happening this week and first thing to say is that the day after Monday, which was a screwed up day for me, was even worse. I got my damn iPod confiscated by the damn chinese teacher. Had no mood to do anything else that day but kill her. She even bothered to call my dad and tell him about it -.-ll. Anyway, on thursday, things started looking up again for me. Wasn't such a bad day. Just stayed back in school for about an hour to practice in band for this percussion ensemble we're doing for chinese new year. It's called technology and we sound quite ok but are messy at times. Hope we don't screw it up this coming wednesday, and yet i'm not sure if I should go back to tao nan. Haixx. After school on thursday, perhaps the best concert i've been to was held at the expos max pavillion. The band performing was switchfoot and they were damn "zai" on that day. The lead singer got onto the bass drum and did a flip coming down and also took the drum sets crash cymbal, flung it around 360 and crashed it crazily. Hahas, it was awesome. Went with a few guys from church. Before switchfoot actually played there were a few local bands that warmed up the crowd for awhile I guess. There were so many people. My ticket cost me 55 dollars T_T. But in the end it was really just switchfoot who got crowd wild and going crazy. Jumping around shouting along to the songs. Friday as usual, there was band prac, and ended late cos' we went to kope some signs from our school like "LAN RISER" and "STAIRCASE 16". Haha was really fun. Nothing much happened besides that anyway. Well not much left to say but sorry I missed church today, overslept cause of gabriel's boring party yesterday.
I'm coming back with a goal and nothing is gonna' stop me.