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daniel ng, 14.10.94http://www.facebook.com/ngyjd.3 http://baby-drummer23.deviantart.com drums; photography; design; pool; gym. victorian slave; 4C. Band Geek no more. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Monday, March 31, 2008
Here is TECHNOLOGY! Friday, March 28, 2008
Am I really becoming more and more apathetic about band? It seems I have to reconsinder those words in my mind carefully. If you are want to critisize anything can you just go straight to the point and just say it. Why keep it in for so long. It's just impossible to balance my life with equal weightage. Social life, studies, commitment, CCA. How the hell. Are you saying I should just give up my social life to be in there the whole day practicing. That's a pretty sad life don't you think? Haiz, boredom taking over everyday. They say Victoria School is a fine institution for moulding great minds. All lies. What's so special about this school that is different from any other school the discipline level? YEAH RIGHT. The teachers? MY ASS. The facility? That one maybe covered but who the hell cares. The teachers all just suck, they can't teach for nuts. And what's worse is that i'm getting all the crappy new teachers all from this stupid programme that's suppose to "integrate" new teachers into our system. Don't give me this crap. The teachers just suck, period. That's all I have to say about to day man. Really bummed out and tired. Thursday, March 27, 2008
  I have a customized keyboard xD. It spells my name if your that slow to understand T_T". Ahh the relief has been shoved off my shoulders. Performance day over. Not that best of performances but it's up to you to decide, will be posting the videos of the performance taken by my friend. Not thet highest quality video but still the music is audible. Videos should be posted latest by Sunday, so keep tuning in to here if you want to see it. My senior playing Czardas is already uploaded. Here you go (: Yeah he's so damn imba. Today could have been the worst day of the year for me so far if it wasn't for this performance. Regardless. Haix, PE forgot to bring my kit. PE teacher got pissed made me run around the field until he told me to stop. I counted the rounds, 13. Yeah thirteen that unlucky number. He got me running for like three quarters of the damn lesson I was so damn prostated of exhaustion. Haix, in total ran about 4km man what the hell. Then later on class was boring as usual. Science teacher failed to keep his attendance a 100%, good thing for me, time to sleep for 1 hour. Then the day just go so much worse when my english teacher came. NOBODY likes her, even her fellow colleagues. Not sure if she is aware of this but she has got to be the most inferior of teachers compared to ANY teacher in the school. Wow, she threatened me cos' I did absolutely nothing. The amount of yearning that I have to murder her. Just stick a knife in her throat or something. Anything would do as long as she died. Really bummed out. Tuition was an absolute bore. No fun whatsoever, was a complete waste of time, couldn't have studied even if I tried my hardest. I was pressingly faint and looked haggard. -.-" is all I can say. Haix. Stay tune for other ensemble videos. Cheers(: Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Yay, I sprayed my walls and yeah whatever it's ugly -.-" Looks better in real-life, not kidding. Yeah i'll post a pic later. The colours don't look anything like the real one but you don't need to tell me it's ugly cos' I know it is. Yeah so this is how I spend my "E-Learning" days (2 days we get to slack and do homework online). Well it's back to school tomorrow. Ahh, lunchtime concert, nervous man. Should get a friend to help video so you guys can see. Ahh whatever school's gonna be a heck of a bore. Trying to find out of new innovative ways of sleeping in class without getting caught anymore. And yeah, here's the "graffiti", suck lah I know T_T.  Singapore Young Photographer's Award here I come; until I get 2 more photos for my final entry of 6 that i'm required to submit. Here's a pic of my "collage" so far.  Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Sigh, life is getting duller as each second passes by. Boredom is taking over my life, what can I do to preclude this. Holding back on repining myself is becoming an arduous task. What am I to do in this seemingly meaningless life to make things more compelling. Friends are all I have to make something of life, school not so much of an assistance to me in trying to bring back my old life, where I used to look forward to each day thinking I would do something new. But now, i'm just slacking without any purpose whatsover. Wish time could discontinue for a moment, let me think about what I want to do with my life now. Have lunchtime concert this thursday. Percussion ensembles here I come. Need to prepare alot, will be a huge boost if we play well, should fix our spot in Musical World. Hope I don't screw up then. Sunday, March 23, 2008
As the second hand ticks I think about you, You remain in my mind, as I remain as a fool. How am I to embrace your grace? Your beauty can be compared to that of the universe, who am I but a meagre stranger to you? I cower like a dunce, being with you? Not a chance. Your always in my head, how do I stop? Can never forget whatever you said. The world is yours, it belongs to you, what the hell am I suppose to do? The deluge of pain gushing through my heart, can't stand the fact that we're so far apart. Trying to get my mind off you, just impossible, Am I just suppose to get a clue? Each moment i'm without you, my heart's in sorrow and travail, is it really you whom I should hail? Drift us apart with a gust of wind, your heart is chained up, won't you let me in? -daniel Yes, I wrote this stop asking T_T. Kazoo! Lol, that's the name of some stupid random instrument Russell was forced to buy cos' he "blew" it in Swee Lee just now. Haha, the salesdude made him buy it for 2 bucks cos of "hygiene" purposes. Made him so bloody pissed. Anyway it seems life is getting less interesting as each day passes. As life becomes more and more vapid, it appears increasingly inane to me. Same old routines every single day. Wake up, go to school, come back, sleep. This feels so pointless, and when I feel tired I just feel like dying. Homework's piling up, feel like i'm gonna' be squished by it very soon just like a meagre bug compared to a giant. Haix, won't you just complete that empty void in my life? Would you mind coming in to my life. You and your alluring appearance inspires me to live on each day. But how would it be possible. Just you nobody else come on in to my life! Friday, March 21, 2008
Been up to random editting again, yeah not my best images.     Thursday, March 20, 2008
Another random poem. Icy feet, swollen hands, exhaustion overwhelmed, and standing felt like hell. Through day and night, I continued to pray, hoping someone would come and save the day. Stinging pain penetrates the skin, death and torture lies within. Laughter is no more a game, hope and dreams their all the same. Confined in this torn down room, hoping someone would just come soon. Day after day I counted each second, eternity felt so short just then. I remained in denial, refusing to give up hope, the fog in this room, making me choke. The time had come for me to die, I shed a tear, the first time I cried... -daniel (: Wow, haven't updated for quite awhile, mostly due to the fact that my computer was sent for repair for about a week or so. Yeah, anyway life goes on the same old boring way. Been thinking about how life was like in the past few years for me. The good and bad times, elation and agony. Are they a form of balancing each other out? How simple and easy is life to carry out, but is it the way that we make it complicated perturbs us in our steady state of mind. Aiye, here we go... I never though i'd make it this far, with time slowly catching up. Taking a stroll down memory lane, I thought of the past, so much anguish and pain. What did I do to deserve this sh*t, this dolor and misery, like bullets through the chest. The bleak wind pierced my skin, like a thousand needles going in. The light from street lamps were so dim, darkness gradually fading in. Being lost admist the disarrayed anarchy, time had gone by just too fast. When was all this going to be put to an end? The only thing that could save me now, was a God-send. -daniel (: Yeah, being doing alot of these random poems during classes. Nothing much to do during them anyway. Well, tomorrow's Good Friday and i'm bringing a friend to church, hopefully he'll realise the essentialness of God in his life. I shan't force him. Always being the muddle headed on in class and oh yeah, speaking about class, I helped do some sweet graffiti on the back of the wall, yeah at least I think it's sweet, will post a picture of it. Oh and I bought a cool belt and the buckle is a lighter, yeah will post a pic of that too.   Monday, March 10, 2008
Wow, if only my academic results were just as good as my drum exam results. Yeah that's right, I ACED it! Yay so happy, but yet the test was so freaky. In a sound-proof room with 2 middle-aged men. Yeah anyway got A for every component of the test. Wee, the guy told me I should have gone for harder grade. Lol. Anyway not much lah. I got a new pair of Adidas F30+ futsal boots. Yeah! Got not much to say for today lah, but hope that my holidays will be well spent. Hoping to catch up with old friends. Been up to random editting recently, here are some photos. The Mas Selemat one's just a joke >.<      Sunday, March 9, 2008
Haven't had the time to "refurbish" my blog. Been really busy for the past few days. Do all of us really stand a chance against kismet? Or is it a battle already lost, for our fate has been decided. Or is fate even reality? Do we go by each day by a fixed path, even when making decisions, they are all ready made for us. Been doing alot of thinking for the past few days, about how life is going to turn out for me. Ever wondered what your future would be like? Or even have one small doubt about God. Is he real, where has he been at times of need? We surmise he is there but is he really existent in this universe? These thoughts have been echoing in the back of my mind lately. These bad habits are onerous to get rid off, thinking in such abhorrent manners. Finally the I have caught up with the holidays but soon, they will overtake me in just about a weeks time. How sad that time passes so swiftly. I realised that I have changed drastically over the years, not the feeble guy any longer. How strong should I stride in my life? What is the right amount of pride I should put in my life such that I have sufficient self-esteem. Realising how lucky I am in my life. How blessed I am by having parents I can call dad and mum. That gaping hole in my life still needs to be filled. That void filled with nothingness. What can fill it up and pour concrete in that hole and let it solidify. It's just missing something crucial that forces me into cower into this slight depression of the mind. How is it possible to live like that! Drum exam will be tomorrow wish me luck. Tried to get my dad to buy me a laptop today but to no avail. True what he says, my brother is leaving to NS this coming thursday and i'll have the computer to myself. But still... It would be nice to have a computer to call my own. Well I got to go for dinner already. Monday, March 3, 2008
Today's post has gotta' be a short one. Anyway been really busy now. How the hell am I suppose to prioritize my time properly when it's just not possible. School, CCA, Social Life. Whoever is able to accomplish this task of balancing your time properly deserves to be kowtowed. It's just massive piles of homework and pressure given by seniors, and even friends. What the hell am I to do. Band is taking up almost everyday of the week. Time for homework is slowly disintegrating into thin air. Adding to all these, homework is getting more and more pointless everyday. This stupid subject called OPW has got to be the biggest waste of time. What the hell, learning about Katong. An area I barely go to. The only interesting place there is the freaking lan shop there. And they aren't even that good to add to that. Haix, I salute you people who are able to complete homework. It's an unfeasible task to accomplish. How is it possible to balance it man, schedules only make it worse. Hopefully March holidays next week will help me get my mind off all this hardship and apprehensiveness. But band camp will be a killer though, looking forward to it. Well like I said, this is a short post. Saturday, March 1, 2008
Not much in a mood to post today, nothing much really happened actually. Just had school in the morning till about 12.30 or so then stayed back to play soccer till 3 and now my legs are aching. Anyway, some people can really be callow at times. I mean being a lil' bit is fine but there's a limit to it. As to those people, suggestions that this shit stops? Will be great if it does. Been experimenting with photoshop effects and I managed to come out with a really cool result that makes a picture look like a drawing. Will post an expample. Here we go. I know the pic abit "zi lian" ah, but just for example's sake.  This is before, This is after. (: cool eh? |
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