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Tuesday, April 29, 2008 This "investment" of going into IP might be getting a little risky. Especially when having to send 50 dollars for just some "General Ability Test". Yes, but hopefully, this will all pay off and i'll be able to happily leave the thing that we all call "school". Today we were held back for the New South Whales science test which was made COMPULSORY for us. Yes compulsory. What happened to primary school days when you could just choose whether you wanted to pay the damn $8.60 or not. We had to stay back for an hour for it, and to make matters worse, my class is being involved in some recent theft cases. What's been missing you ask? STATIONERY. All that's missing is stationery and some other small items and this has to become some big issue involving my DM and my form teacher having to hold us back for about another 1 hour or more. We weren't even allowed to go for a damn lunch break. Haix, the mugging is going quite well I guess. Once the History paper is over i'll be able to relax a bit more cos' I haven't exactly the "model pupil". This is going to be a tough year if I don't manage to secure a place in the IP programme. I just got to keep my mind on what life's gonna be like after its over. Yeah, that'll be the time. Monday, April 28, 2008 BOO! This picture shall make up for today's absent post. Sunday, April 27, 2008 pillory Whoa, just came back from a big feast at Red House along East Coast Park. More like a going-away dinner for my sister cos she's leaving at 3am later on for her big holiday in Italy and Greece, while i'm going to be stuck here like any other student hoping for the Mid-Years to be done and over with as fast as possible. Well after dinner we just went to stand by the beach there and stone for a bit and I don't know but I was just, how do you say. Hmm, had an epiphany? But it didn't have much of an impact on my life though. The starry night sky, the cool night breeze, I don't know, it's kind of dramatic don't you think? When a single light shines upon the sea at night, We get a glimpse of those sparkles on the water. I'm alone at this beach in the dead of night, Just me alone with nothing in sight. The water reflected the light, As I reflected on my life and thought, What are we, but mere insects in this never-ending galaxy, Confined in this sphere we call earth. As we await each day's tomorrow, We take advantage of the blessings we have, No greivance, no sadness, no sorrow, But we still wait for him to save. Devoured by our deceiving two-facedness, Eating away our lives with disgrace. Leading lives with directions simply aimless, Competing with others as if it were a race. These misconceptions we ponder about, Never really knowing what's happening around. The path of righteousness is narrow and the path of peccany is broad, In the end we shall all come to God. -daniel "Inspiration?" o.O Don't really have a clue. Well service this morning was ok I guess. Played with a few slip-ups here and there between the transitions of the choruses and all that. Overall, a moderate performance for me, considering the fact it was my first time :p. Well, I met a few familiar people at the IP open house, like people I knew from my primary school, I think it was Amanda or something. Couldn't recall her on the spot but she could remember me, so abit embarassing yeah? Praying that i'll get into IP. Please. Saturday, April 26, 2008 Practician I need to start working on following the musical-time of stuff and also start working on how to play slow-tempo songs as proven by today's worship practice. Learning to start following can be pretty tough at times, especially when nerves start to kick in. I'll post more bout today some other time. Got to wake up earlier tomorrow for the worship preparations. Wish me luck I guess (: Friday, April 25, 2008 Grievance? Those old friends of mine, thinking back about the past. The relationship similar to a compadres. The fun times spent like brothers in arms. Running into old friends can be a blast. Met Marcus, from pri 6 recently at the Bedok Food Court. Wow, it's been really long since i've seen him. He got to keep a tail at the back T_T And I met him just when I was about to cut my hair and that just rubbed it in a lot. Argh, it was fun though after I met Julian and his friend slacking outside cold storage. We were waiting for the better barber butt he didn't come cos' he was sick so I had to cut in the end anyway. Each day passing slowly, as exams draw nearer teasing us while we mug in complete urgency. Rightfully I shouldn't be blogging but should be studying now. But heck, it's worth breaking some rules sometimes. Been really obsessed with Led Zeppelin for the past few days, thinking bout buying their new album. Not exactly new but yeah it really cheers you up. Blues anybody? Have not much to say about how things are going in my life now. My life is very ________? Up to me to fill in the blank. Going for the IP open house at VJ tomorrow, hope to gain some new insights about how the programme works. Hope that i'll be shortlisted for the interviews. And speaking about interviews, my brother just got into SMU today after his short 10-15 minute interview. Feel happy for him and sad for me. Yes the legacy of the Ng's will probably be ruined by me. My sister and my brother both in VJC choir, both went so SMU. Haix, there's much for me to live up to, work hard and I might even over exceed my target. Slack and? Don't really know what to do now. Studying is a chore. Let's go for a joy ride tomorrow. Hope worship practice will be fun. Thursday, April 24, 2008 Breaking news! I'm playing for this Sunday's service. Ahh! Afraid i'll screw up man, happy yet scared feeling. Hahas this is my first time playing cos' I didn't attend practice often enough in the beginning :p Refuge It seems that I should have named by dog Mas Selamat. That would really describe how much he likes to run away from my house everytime my father comes home with the car and opens the big gate. He runs out with no regard to the amount of beatings he would get later on anyway. Well besides that, i'm trying to get onto the mugging lane right now. Seems that i'm slowly drifting into the flow of it. And yeah another random point. My "Operations Manager" made me cut my hair again -.- Really bullshit man. I have to revert back to the somewhat Mohawk style now. Yeah here's a pic. Have no idea why my eyes are so darn black. Life is so dull in school. Mad people going around with their brains filled with nothing but crap. Its times like these where Led Zeppelin is the best cure for feeling down. In the days of my youth I was told what it was to be a man, Now Ive reached the age Ive tried to do all those things the best I can. No matter how I try, I find my way to do the same old jam. *good times, bad times, You know I had my share; When my woman left home With a brown eyed man, Well, I still dont seem to care. Sixteen: I fell in love With a girl as sweet as could be, Only took a couple of days Till she was rid of me. She swore that she would be all mine And love me till the end, When I whispered in her ear I lost another friend. * chorus I know what it means to be alone, I sure do wish I was at home. I dont care what the neighbors say, Im gonna love you each and every day. You can feel the beat within my heart. Realize, sweet babe, we aint ever gonna part. The lyrics in this song make me happy (: Solo is really awesome in this song. Drummer is really damn good man. JOHN BONHAM! Good times bad times. Let them roll. Thoughts will wander. Tuesday, April 22, 2008 Well here we are at the 100th post of this blog. For a guy -.- That's a heck of an achievement. Most guys' blogs last a rough estimate of 2-3 days. Hahas, yeah life goes on and whatever. School's getting tougher as the exams are right around the corner. Sometimes I just wished I hadn't thought so much about things and let life take it's natural flow. Lessons are dreary but still I struggle and perservere to take down notes. Yes I have turned to the mugging side now. It's not too late for you to join it too. AEP homework has to be the most tiresome one yet. A stupid sculpture made out of styrofoam which only consists of the letters of your name can sound pretty easy. But you don't know what you've got into until you've experienced all this. So much work to do so little time. I really need to chiong my studies right now. MYEs!!! Some teachers are really getting on my nerves now. Not referring to any ENGLISH teacher of any sort or whatever but I really just can't stand the sight of her entering those classroom doors almost everyday. Her face just ruins my mood of studying. GET ME OUT OF THIS SCHOOL! IP PLEASE! Getting ready to finally enclose my submission form. And also my photography competition due date is 30 April. Shouldn't be complacent lest I miss the deadline and miss the chance of 5k!!! Well that's it for my 100th post for now. Monday, April 21, 2008 OK, regardless of the extremely retarded pictures in the previous post, the mood i'm in has changed drastically. Mr Chia my "Operations Manager" has offically qualified for my 'naughty list'. Don't think he's gonna get a very nice present this christmas. Yeah he cut my hair again. That really sucks. Here's a pic. Just taking out all the frustrations on the drums helps a lot. To everybody each time I beat the drum there is a piercing pain to their ears. To me it's just a soothing sound of relief. I think i'm playing for youth service this week so maybe i'll just be damn zai cos' of my mood. Don't really know what to do nowadays. Step 1. Go to school. Step 2. Sleep. Step 3. Go home. Step 4. Play soccer. Step 5 Eat. Step 6. Sleep. Step 7. Repeat till the day you die. Yeah that's how to live a life of a daniel. Pretty easy? Yeah. IP! Sunday, April 20, 2008 LOL. I was seriously damn bloody bored when I got home today. No comments. I look like a freaking girl lah. Haha. Out for lunch after church. Cheer up(: Saturday, April 19, 2008 Running away from fear? Some say it might be a daunting task, whilst others disagree. Which side am I on? I for one, believe it is a challenging obstacle we can never out-run. No matter how fast you run or how hard you try to avoid it, it will catch up with you one day. Those secrets that you think only you know will be revealed. The world will know who you truely are. I'm afraid that I might soon become an example for this kind of situations. I just need to have the damn guts to face it as it is. I just need to open my mouth to tell you something. I barely know you, but what the heck, it's worth a try. No harm done. I can't get it out, it's tough for me. Just wait. Mid years mid years. Here we go again. Aiming for a MSG of 3 or below. That would make me really happy. But yet, do I feel like I really deserve it? All this procrastinating and lazing around; will it eventually lead to anywhere at all? Even this education, does it really matter. How much of an impact is this going to make on us. Aren't the friends going to have a much bigger impact than out studies? I just need a break. A big void to suck me out of this time zone. Make me disappear so that I can just break away from reality. For once just not to worry about anything in life at all. Just you alone in your empty state of mind and your body only just being a shell to harness your soul in it. No worries. Tranquility. Wednesday, April 16, 2008 I own you! Haha, the rudiments section editted xD Monday, April 14, 2008 One night I had a wondrous dream, One set of footprints there was seen, The footprints of my precious Lord, But mine were not along the shore But then some stranger prints appeared, And I asked the Lord, "What have we here? Those prints are large and round and neat, But, Lord, they are not shaped like feet." "My, child, " he said in somber tones, "For miles I carried you alone. I challenged you to walk in faith, But you refused and made me wait." "You disobeyed, you would not grow. The walk of faith you would not know. So, I got tired, I got fed up. And there I dropped you on your butt." "Because in life, there comes a time, When one must fight, and one must climb, When one must rise and take a stand, Or leave their butt prints in the sand." -daniel... Yeah, this has kind of what's been troubling me lately. Faith. They say school influences you a hell lot, but instead i'm doing the opposite of being influenced. I'm just being the opposite of what people around me are behaving like. Retarded, gay, extra. I'm really trying to avoid these people as much as possible. It's just too crazy around this place. Another day another caning. Wasting your life on ciggs, haix, I though you would know better. And getting caught in the morning in the toilet? That's just the smartest thing for you to do. Good influences and bad influences? Finding a balance can be difficult. Right now my scale is beginning to lean towards the "bad" side. How fragile the human life can be. Can life be described as meaningless? Why does this happen to the good people (not referring to me -.-") and the bad people just get away unharmed. Hurt can cause serious detriment to your life. Pain inside me, just cannot go away. Pain inside me, just wants to stay. The needles pierce through my heart, endless torture abounds. I feel so far apart from you, are you even somewhere around? Why will you not speak to me? Is it that you do not care? It couldn't be, but i'm still in despair. I press on and perservere, I just need you to draw near. Your help and guidance I will seek, lest my future turns bleak. I know you will come, I just know you will, Oh dear Jesus, You are my shield. -daniel...T_T Sunday, April 13, 2008 Wicked sick video I found. REALLY AMAZING. Haven't posted a proper text post in quite ahwhile. Mainly due to all this school work and i've been really lazy to do anything. I've always been talking about how much I hate my school. This hatred just develops to a much higher level each day I stay in that nut house. Firstly, teachers there aren't execptionally good at teaching or anything, and secondly the students are retarded enough to make you want to kill yourself. Some people, not mentioning who, just can't stop being full of themselves. Only revealing in small manners but still giving you some clues that they think they are better than you. Being a little egoistic is okay, but too much of it just plain sucks. I mean if you think your better than other people, just shut up and keep it to yourself, nobody really bloody cares about it. You think you are? Then prove it, don't just say empty words for boasting. Really pisses me off how arrogant these bastards can be. Really praying that I can make it into VIP. That way I don't need to take my O-Levels and I can just get out of my secondary school and go to VJC. Perhaps the only thing that i'll miss about Victoria is some friends and my CCA. Yeah, just need all the luck I can get. The open house is on 26 April at VJC. Anybody care to join me? Schools overflowing with homework. CCA has just been suspended due to the Mid-Term Exams! ARGH, why have they caught up with me so fast. But I just need to think about life after the exams. Yeah slacking to the maximum with band practice almost everyday. Yeah, that's kind of a minor set-back, but i'll just have to deal with it. Concert's coming really quickly and we haven't run through some pieces properly yet. Hopefully Musical World XXII will be a success and we'll all be happy. Well then, hopefully life goes on smoothly without any troubles. School, friends and everything else. I always say I want to stop slacking. That's something really difficult for me to achieve. School work is more of a chore than a nessecity. I really need to wake up from the drowsiness and start working seriously. It will be hard, but i'll just have to shut up and try. Tuesday, April 8, 2008 Yeah today's post will just be an all picture post. Too lazy to type anything out, had a tiring day. Yeah, I wish I had done this. Bras Basah there. New sticks at swee lee. Tama SB-F-BR Oak. Really sweet. We are hardworking people always concentrating on lessons. I had a lousy hand. I only keep stationery in my pencil case nothing else. No way there are cards in them. Monday, April 7, 2008 Bring some more meaning in my life. Bring out the fun and the purposes I used to desire to live past everyday, it's just gone, somewhere. Sometimes i'm just too abstracted by anything surrounding me and nothing ever seems to revolve around life besides completely insignificant random thoughts running around my mind. Why is this so? Don't ask me i'm trying to figure that out for myself as well. Argh. The thoughts of going to school everyday, forcing me into this berserk daft frenzy. I can't stand it in there any more. Or is it just my class that's really screwed up, besetting me as each horrible day passes by. I just can't imagine the fact of me living out this year, well i've made it to the fourth month already. So what's stopping me? I have no idea, there's just this sense of compulsion in me, forcing me to feel this way. Just get me out of that nut house called my mind. What are these tricks of yours? Stop them. Why have you changed so much? Sunday, April 6, 2008 Haha, yes I know I suck, I was bored -.-. Well, yesterday had Powerpoint 08', a church event where we just all gathered together for a time of praise. Was a really fun time, but yet quite tiring. Heard my godma is coming to visit tomorrow. Yeah she migrated to Melbourne quite a long time ago. Anyway back to school tomorrow, gonna be a really boring vapid day due to some importunate teachers that just refuse to give up on torturing us and pestering us with stupid homework. What kind of subject is "Online Project Work". It has got to be the biggest waste of our time ever. I'm really frustrated with how things in life are going for me right now. PRIORITIES! WHICH TO PUT FIRST! God help me. Saturday, April 5, 2008 This guy rocks. Friday, April 4, 2008 Wow tiring and perhaps pointless day today. Sports day. How stupid for it to be compulsory for every one in the school to watch people run and cheer them on like crazy people -.- Wasted about 4 hours there. This is how I spent time there. 1 hour - Listen Music 2 hours - Find way out of the place 1 hour - Sleep Yes that's basically what I did there. If I hadn't brought my iPod I would have been dead. No fun at all. I was so bloody bored. The only positive thing is that we got to skip history class and go to play soccer which wasn't even that much fun due to the unwelcomed prescence of some irritating people. Tomorrow's gonna be a heck of a long day at band, due to the abscence of practice today cos' of sports day. Yeah, so i'm expecting tomorrow's training to be quite intensive. Not sure if i'll be able to make it in time for worship practice in my church. Haix, working out my priorities is really hard. Recently had a math test, probably gonna fail and will have to go for remedial if I do. Scary man, don't want to add more events to my schedule when it's already jam-packed. Will have to turn in earlier today, feeling really tired. Thursday, April 3, 2008 Woo, hat-trick during PE lesson. Finally something to enjoy. However cocky or pretentious I might appear to be, soccer still has seemed to be able to regain my interest. Hmm, sports day is tomorrow and we'll be dismissed from school an hour earlier at like 12 and we're going to marine crescent district to play some serious futsal(: We got to be at VJC by 2.15. Just like last year, a hell lotta fun. Have been trying to catch up with lessons nowadays, however backbreaking it might appear to be. Haix, it's just really a tough task for me to achieve considering all this hooha in the school and my schedule being so tight. Haha tiny pony tail. Photo courtesy of Jerome. zZZ Been trying to draw some graffiti. Looks better drawn rather than in this picture. Wednesday, April 2, 2008 Borrowed a SRL camera from my friend today only managed to get some shots. Quite fond of some of them like the barb wire one and the blur building. Ignore my doggy sleeping he looks cute haha. Tuesday, April 1, 2008 Why the hell am I doing this shit. It's just too much to handle. A 1500 word essay to write about "Typography". What kind of a damn topic is that. Starting to feel AEP was never really a right decision for me. The way the "teachers" teach and convey their messages across is just too screwed up. They don't even inform us on what the hell we are graded on. The amount of homework is past belief and plain staggering to anybody. Teachers at this maniacal house of "education" are totally unethical. What the hell, they can't even teach properly with exceptions of some very few and special teachers. Well life's becoming worse for me as each day passes. Confused. Just want all this crap to stop. Go away.
I'm coming back with a goal and nothing is gonna' stop me.