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It's time I rebooted my system
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daniel ng, 14.10.94
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
hardened

I went in with a determined mindset. I was intent on not having fun, and perhaps that was the main obstacle that prevented me from enjoying myself. My heart was hardened and even though I wanted to have fun, I guess my mind didn't allow it to happen. It's a struggle between your head and your heart, that's probably the most challenging thing to follow in your life. Neither of them will always be correct, I guess it's up to you to access the situation. Well at least I managed to bond with certain people in the midst of the dissatisfaction. Somehow I think he's still knocking on my door, simply waiting for me to unlock it.

Sigh, it's going to be a trying week ahead.
Agenda:
•Recollections - 20th Dec (I don't even know how some of our pieces sound like)
•Holiday Homework - 4th Jan (There's A LOT of it and I haven't touched it)
•Christmas -25th Dec (Need to prepare all the gifts)
•Pastor's Farewell Performance - 27th Dec (I still don't have a clear idea of what I'm going to do)
•Arm Rehab - 29th Dec (Still got to wear a stupid wrist brace)
•School books - 4th Jan (I missed the last day to get them... GREAT)
•Clean up my room - 31st Dec (Mum's idea)

Well, that's all I have to do. The room clean-up is something my mum just won't let go off. I don't know why but she seems to have a problem with MY room being dirty, why should she care -.- And it's not even in that much of a mess in the first place, sigh. The only thing I hate more than people losing their temper, is people who lose their temper with no clear distinct explainable reason, and guess what? My mum's the best at doing that, not one day can she go without shouting, whether it's at my maid, grandma or anybody else. There's an assurance that she'll be angry. Somehow I miss how she was in Japan. So much less "Wait till mummy die then see how the house will be!" Sigh, I hate it when she uses that line. And for me to say I hate people who lose their temper is quite a big deal. As a kid I would lose my temper over the SMALLEST matters. Like losing or dying in a game, I would get all sour and pissed off. Guess people change and mature huh, the last time I really lost my temper was... I really can't remember, haha. Guess I'm not a very angsty person any longer, more calm and preserved.

Wish my sister would get all her clothes out of my room so I actually had space around here. Aye, I'm looking forward more to Christmas eve rather than Christmas day itself. It won't be so lonesome then. So many things to clear off my list, so many things running through my mind. I have a lot of things to do in the next couple of weeks and I really should get started... NOW.

"The man that feareth, Lord, to doubt, in that fear doubteth thee."

BRING IT ON DECEMBER.
I'm coming back with a goal
and nothing is gonna' stop me.