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daniel ng, 14.10.94http://www.facebook.com/ngyjd.3 http://baby-drummer23.deviantart.com drums; photography; design; pool; gym. victorian slave; 4C. Band Geek no more. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Wednesday, June 30, 2010
struggle  Ow ow ow ow. Getting a clearer picture on what I wanna' do now. Somehow I miss the air over there in Brisbane. The overall atmosphere is just... relaxing. Can't believe we're already past wednesday. Everybody loves to describe how time passes by so quickly don't they? Before I could even think of any complex sentence structures to emphasize on how time zooms by, I already wasted 5 minutes. Yay, P.E tomorrow, but there's also MT oral tomorrow, garh. Wish all you Sec 4s good luck with it! Cheers. Beat of the Day: I Got You - James Brown Tuesday, June 29, 2010
blank    Heh I seem rather blank today. Refer to the first photo for today's mood. Beat of the Day: Swing Swang Swung - Niacin Monday, June 28, 2010
colour  Heh realized I never posted this up here, the final design was without colour cos' it'd just be ridiculously over-priced if we printed it with colour like that. I still prefer it though :D Always good to add a little colour to your life. I read the funniest thing yesterday, ironically I read it right here. On my own blog. Heh I started reading the posts that I published 3 years ago, and wow, it sure was refreshing haha. Seriously, just click on one of the months in '07 down below at the archives and keep yourself entertained for awhile. Hard to believe I'm the same person behind the keyboard. I should probably post something interesting and exciting about the first day of school, but sadly the most exciting thing was probably the rain. At the end of the day, I often like to review or think back about what I learnt in school, but for today, it's a miserable zilch. My eye lids got a pretty good work out today, probably did like 20 reps in total of lifting, screw sleeping pills, if scientists can somehow invent a way to squeeze math and science into a pill, it'd probably knock out an adult cold. Hope my eye lids can be like a 7-eleven tomorrow, open 24-hours. Let's see if Day 2 is any different. R[E]hab is kinda' going well, I'm letting the water seep through my fingers these days. I'm getting slightly more accustomed to the dead silence at night. Beat of the Day: Second Chance - Shinedown Some people are just born for it, inspiration man. fearless  Take a ride. It's a little awkward posting in the dead of night, reminds me of what I'd be doing instead if this was a few months back in the past. Heh, but hey, look at the title on this ol' dead wall. Look not into the past! And dive into the future. To my dear amigo: The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. -Nelson Mandela Don't fear the future and don't look down upon yourself. Don't be ashamed of your flaws but instead you peel them off your very skin and toss them away for bad habits are like scabs after getting cuts or abrasions. If we peel and peel with our itchy fingers, not only does it get worse, it causes us more pain as well. So why the heck do we peel have this urge to peel it then? That is indeed a very good question, but depending on what habits you harbor, the answer definitely varies. Just like the last question on your Chinese O level paper. So what do you do? You wait, it's as simple as that. Don't take any action, just wait for that scab to heal. Because there is no scab that the human body cannot overcome. Let it heal, don't peel. Time will take care of it. Despite how creepy and distasteful that analogy may be, I hope you find comfort in the fact that there are in fact certain ways to hasten the healing process of scabs. Just take your friends to be the moist towel that has to wipe and clean your scab to battle the horrid infections that might arise from it. That's what friends are for eh? To wipe your disgusting pus-filled scab. Haha, what an analogy. So take it in your stride my friend, knowing that you have us to lean on. I am not an endangered species, there are many of us hear that will be willing to help. Not all may be willing to be that moist towel to clean that scab, but I'm sure we'll all have the same desire of lending you a helping hand. Psalm 37:4,7 Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass ... Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him. Sunday, June 27, 2010
reboot  Heh all the hooha about school restarting tomorrow isn't really getting to me much. In fact, I'm pretty glad that school's starting again, it feels like I haven't been doing anything with my life lately, not anything productive that is. The faster school ends only means that Os are sneaking up on us. Somehow I don't seem that stressed anymore, I just feel so indifferent about everything and all the rants about how O levels is just a one shot thing still doesn't really get to me much. The more time I waste here, the more I think about what I'll be doing in school tomorrow, damn there's art. God I feel so lost. Heh I wanna SHOUUUUUUT! Bring it on bitches. They say I'm crazy, falling apart Do you like the way I murdered your heart I'm smart and cagey, I come in the night If you let me in, you'll give up your life He like to roll in mud, up to his chin Now I open my head and let his voodoo in I rode those sissy bars all the way to hell Sweet mother justice, I've heard it all There's nothing left to tell I hope you didn't need all this for yourself And the man with the stars says he knows you are But I just keep singing' la dee dee dah WHO NEEDS YOU. Beat of the Day: Serial Killer - Slash's Snakepit Saturday, June 26, 2010
M.J  I know this is a day late but oh well, R.I.P Michael. Beat of the Day: Man in the Mirror - Michael Jackson mishit  Hah, the title could be misread as "mi-shit". Okay never mind. Mum, "This whole holiday, I haven't seen you study! Have you studied or not?!" Me, "Yeah." Heh, I regret to inform myself that that was a lie. Let's review the overall productivity of this holidays: 1st Week: 31st May - 6th June Had my Chinese O levels, sat for paper 1 and paper 2. Paper 1 went rather smoothly but I think I really really messed up paper 2. Other than that, it was useless school everyday till about 3pm or so. Didn't learn much except for a couple of new concepts in Physics. Week 1 went out the door. 2nd Week: 7th June - 16th June It was ban practice on Monday in view of the overseas trip that was on the 9th. On Tuesday, there wasn't any practice but Sec 4s had to make a trip back to school in the morning to tape up instrument cases. After that I headed to play soccer over at ECP. And the day after, was Brisbane, Australia. Heh, well I had a good time, and that's all I really care about. Reached Singapore at about 8.30pm on the 16th. 3rd Week: 17th June - 25th June This week was mostly free, but coming back from an overseas trip just set me in a different mood and it took me awhile to readjust my system to this place we call Singapore. Went to church on Thursday night and stayed over, took pictures for the night games which kinda' made me a little blind. Stayed up all the way till about 5am where I slept on the youth lounge couch will about 11am. Heh made my way back home with enormous eye bags and a very cranky attitude, didn't have any desire to study at all. Slacked the rest of the day. On the 22nd and 23rd I went back to school for intensive Chemistry, knowing that I've already kinda' given up on Chemistry, I was pretty much wasting my time there. After Chemistry, just hit the gym and never had motivation to study. And look where we are. 26th June Heh two days away from school. Damn... So back to what my mum said. Even if she had seen me study, would she mention it at all. To be honest, I put in a little bit more effort than I usually do for exams for Prelim 1s. Haha, she didn't say smack about it. Staying back in school everyday 2 weeks before the exams till about 9+ or so. Does seeing me study mean that I'll get good grades? Does it mean that if she doesn't see me study, I'm stupid? So if we don't see God, does it mean he's not there? We all love our mums don't we? But sometimes they get WAY out of line. Thursday, June 24, 2010
laterals  I'M BORED. Shut up. Latissimus Dorsi, ouch. Yet another productive day in the life of Daniel, where the only thing he accomplishes is the amazing achievement of achieving nothing. Grats. Wednesday, June 23, 2010
cover The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. (I Samuel 16:7) countdown  I can't tell what brings myself to like this photo ^^ VISIT!!! If you haven't been there, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!? Cryin' - Aerosmith There was a time When I was so brokenhearted Love wasn't much of a friend of mine The tables have turned - yeah 'Cause me and them ways have parted That kinda love was the killin' kind (so listen) All I want is someone I can't resist I know - all I - need to know By the way that I got kissed I was Cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you Your love is sweet misery I was Cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you Do what you do down on me Now there's not even breathing room Between pleasure and pain Yeah you cry when we're makin' love Must be one and the same It's down on me Yeah, I got to tell you one thing It's been on my mind, girl I gotta say We're partners in crime You got that certain something What you do to me takes my breath away Now the word out on the street Is the devil's in your kiss If our love goes up in flames It's a fire I can't resist 'Cause what you got inside Ain't where your love should stay Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love 'Til you give your heart away Heh, if you never heard this song before, you'd probably think it was one of those sad miserable songs where the singer probably sounded like he wanted to kill himself, but no, they somehow managed to piece in these lyrics into an upbeat classic that was a major hit. "Now I'm tryin' to forget you, your love is sweet misery". I really miss you and I'm doing what I can to make myself stop, but some part of me is just really stubborn and hesitant to give in. Monday draws nearer and nearer each time my finger hits a key, I wanna' kill so much time, kill kill kill, murder murder murder. The ironic thing is that each second I waste my life on this, time is killing me too. Happy thoughts! Ah, who am I kidding, I feel so lost now, don't feel like studying at all. Every drop of blood coursing through my veins is telling me to pick up my books and bury my head deep deep into them, but some mystical force I think called laziness is really putting up a tough fight. Blah blah blah... The more I type, the more this post won't make any sense because this is just another sign of pure laziness at work. Laziness at work, heh is that considered an oxy moron? GARH! I need... to... stop... wasting... time... Like now... Tuesday, June 22, 2010
morality Education is the art of making man ethical. ~ Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel If that's the case, I do believe I am ready to move on. But yet, it makes you think, how do subjects like chemistry or social studies or any other subject for that matter, improve your moral principles? Sure, they all say it's about the thought process or about the general knowledge, but isn't there a limit to how much a subject can teach you about thought processing? Sure, I'm just a silly student talking with his biased opinion, but wouldn't a certain thought process level suffice? I just don't wanna' study any more! :( Hmm, I wonder if the word "morality" has a fixed definition, let's look it up. Well according to dictionary.com mo·ral·i·ty [muh-ral-i-tee, maw-] –noun, plural -ties for 4–6. 1. conformity to the rules of right conduct; moral or virtuous conduct. Haha to me, that just sounds like obeying the law, maybe there is no right definition for the word. If there was, education would be much easier with reference to that quote up there wouldn't it? Ok, I'm seriously just wasting time here, I hate Chemistry is basically all I wanted to say :D Garh, I hate missing you. Monday, June 21, 2010
pro.. pro.. procrastinating Garh, I'm finding every little excuse NOT to get to work and I'm actually pretty good at it. If there was a career entitled "Procrastinator", I swear I'd be a millionaire right now. Proof? Well I finished dinner at about 8pm and I was gonna' start on my work. But It's almost 10pm now and I haven't touched it haha. Oh and on a side note, I'll be playing for the 11am service this Sunday, quite excited heh. Hope I don't choke or anything, at least I get to hide behind the acrylic shield. I hate my lats. Sigh, chem lesson starts at 1pm tomorrow, what an awkward timing for a lesson to be held at. I guess it'll be good way to ease the school syndrome back into our systems eh? God, I really hate this feeling, I'm sure everybody knows it. The "School's starting again after the holidays and it felt like it's been so short" kinda' feeling, haha. Wish I had a shorter name for that. Well, it's 10pm and guess what, I can never study after 10pm. So chem can kiss my ass goodbye :D Beat of the Day: Half of my Heart - John Mayer (feat. Taylor Swift) Sunday, June 20, 2010
fathers Fathers, be good to your daughters Daughters will love like you do Girls become lovers who turn into mothers So mothers, be good to your daughters too. Who am I kidding, today ain't about daughters, today's about fathers! Happy fathers day to all the dads out there, especially mine. Heh while the typical family would have dinner out at some classy restaurant, my dad chooses to cook a special dinner for us. And I swear, he could become a chef if he wanted to. I love you dad :D "Rehab" is going quite well today, I'm hoping it keeps up. Saturday, June 19, 2010
I'm back. Maybe I should visit this place more often, my english grades need some fine tuning. When your heart enters a conflict with your mind, that's when you begin to lose your sanity. It's as if it were a grand prix, and the prize was just a moment of delirium. I can't tell if it's my heart or if it's my mind that's in the pole position. I wish 2009 would pay me a visit, I really miss the holidays last year. If it meant that I had to break my hand again to relive that time, I honestly wouldn't mind doing it. Sadly, no matter how many bones I break, nothing is gonna' bring it back. Well, holidays just started, and I NEED to get to work asap. God help us all. On a side note, hello again. |
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